199 Days Remaining
I figured I had better try to squeeze one or two more blog posts out of me before the end of the month - I`ve been slacking!
Well, maybe slacking in the blog posting department, but life`s been very busy, and I couldn`t be happier. My lists are pretty much all crossed off, although of course (as per usual) I`ve been writing new ones as I go. Even old lists are getting worked on: I can cross something else off my 28 Things list! I started dance lessons on Sunday, and I`m so happy that I am finally taking the time to do some things for just me. I`m attending the classes with my friend PC, who I`ve known for a while, and has mentioned wanting to try dance a few times. Since ballroom dance requires a partner (that`s what I`m taking: Social Ballroom!), it`s great that he and I can go together. He`s really tall, too, which is very nice for me (I`m on the tall side for a woman).
Nonetheless, it did encourage me to work toward another item on my list, and that is to get back in good shape. I am not a large person, but I have been very lax in my workout regimen for about a year now, and I have been thinking a lot recently that it was time to get back on the wagon and start regular exercise again. The Funhouse Dancing Glass has kick-started me back into gear: I immediately began working with the WiiFit program again and watching what I eat (although I still get Cheese Pleesers on occasion - that`s one of the perks of being single!), and a few of us Nursing students have started working out regularly in the fitness studio at school. It`s there; it`s free (well, included in tuition, anyway); and my classmate loves designing the workouts. Why not? We had a great workout today and, despite my arms being very sore from the WiiFit boxing (I`m fast and furious), I managed to easily do fifty triceps dips. It surprised me how easily the muscle memory boings back into shape. I`m looking forward to continuing our new routine.
I really think that the Prayer Counseling, as well as the myriad self-help books I've been reading (I think I may be addicted), are giving me a really good foundation for when I'm ready to dive back in to the dating scene...if in fact I ever do "dive" back in. I'm currently simultaneously reading Deal Breakers by Dr. Bethany Marshall and If Love Could Think: Using Your Mind to Guide Your Heart by Alon Gratch, and gleaning little bits of wisdom here and there. I`m not putting all my eggs in one basket by any means, but there definitely is a lot there that makes me realize what patterns and mistakes I consistently get trapped in. I don`t want to go through this year without dating only to step right into another three-year Ferris Wheel ride like the one I stayed on with HB for too, too long.
And speaking of my dating hiatus (not like this entire blog isn`t already speaking of my dating hiatus), you may have noticed something significant about the "Days Remaining" counter at the top of my post. Yep, that's right; I've finally made it to the point where my numbers remaining are in the 100s rather than the 200s: less than 200 days to go. I'm almost at the halfway point! Part of me actually panicked a little at the thought of where I'll be in six months: not that I don't think I'll be ready to date again, but I'm so used to thinking that I'm "not allowed to", or trying to ensure that I remember my guidelines all the time, that I'm really not sure how I'll feel when suddenly I'm on the market again. Most likely nothing much will happen - I don't get asked out a lot now, and I doubt that being once again available will make that any different - but I am beginning to see that I am making real change in myself, so by the end of this year I hope that I will have made some really good choices and positive habits that I can fall back on and continue to work with, no matter who may or may not come into my life. I'm even more excited now that I am taking actual physical steps toward this change.
And now I have to get to bed. I'm kind of looking forward to the soreness I know I`ll feel tomorrow, actually...it motivates me to work out even harder the next day. Through pain and perseverance, I will meet my goals!
"In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer."
-- Albert Camus